I’ve been wanting to write a blog for weeks. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve spoken it out loud in the past month. The problem is, I don’t know where to start.
From the Lord showing me how I view communities he’s placed me in, or how negatively I view myself, or even His pursuit of me over the past 3 months. I just don’t know where to start. With each story it seems like it’s too much to write, or the next thing is happening so fast that I’m on to learning something new about myself.
So, here I sit. Under The Stars playlist is playing through my ear buds, swaying back and forth in my hammock, my newly hurt foot elevated to alleviate swelling, Misha (our dog) is barking at a bird who has been brave enough to enter our property, and still I don’t know what to write.
I know, I’ll start with how the Lord has provided for me over the past 2 years. Can you believe I haven’t had a job for over 2 years. 2 years and 3 months actually. Two years ago this month, I found my way to Georgia to meet my squad. I didn’t know how I was going to get there, someone provided my plane ticket. I didn’t know if I was going to even make the first deadline of $3,500 by May and I was fully funded by the end of May. I mean, that’s about $16,500 you provided in 3 months time. On top of that the Lord has continued to provide for me through you. Would you believe me if I told you over the past two years you’ve donated over $25,500 to me? To my name, to the work YOU believe in that I’m doing. That’s just in my support account with Adventures in Missions. That isn’t including the money you’ve so graciously provided to my personal expenses.
Over the past 4 months I’ve grown in a deeper dependency with the Father. I’ve learned that being called to share God with people isn’t a bad thing. I don’t have to have a more specific group, like I thought. Living with 11 other people has given me a longing for my own space, and also an appreciation for so many people that can speak into my life at once. In a sermon we heard last week Pastor George said there are blind spots in our own life we can’t see, that’s why we allow others in our life so they can tell us about them. I’m thankful for the times people in this community have shown me my blind spots.
I don’t know what the future holds, I have no plans but to live fully in who Christ says I am. I can do that any where, doing anything. The Lord will guide me, I’m confident in that much.
Are you giving others in your life permission to show you your blind spots?
